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happy belated birthday to you.

I don't know why after all the years we've been tgt I still confuse your birthday... keep thinking it's 21st feb.... but I think it's 20th feb... rite? :/ Last year I almost got it wrong.... lol... luckily deb said it's 20th not 21st!  LOL. I'm just bad with numbers.


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Thursday, August 01, 2013


Instead of focusing on what people will think of me, or how to improve my self-worth, maybe I should take a look around me and think about how I can be of service to others and make them happier instead.

Small little actions like my dad helping to fill my water bottle (cos I'm forever almostttt late and rushing to leave the house) or buying back dessert makes me happy, and I guess I can do the same for others too. Maybe there's alot of things about myself I can't change or is hard to improve, but I'm sure I can do the small little things.

The world tells you that you need to be successful, find a good job, earn alot of money, get into some prestigious profession that is worth your degree. THAT, is considered success. I will tell my (future) children- you don't have to.

I don't mean be a bum and underachiever, but really I feel that society puts unnecessary stress on pursuing "success", and are forever comparing. Just be a good person, be of service to others and contribute whatever you have that is within your means.

This reminds me of the story of a poor woman in the bible, who only gave one penny to the church offering and was scoffed at by the pharisees. Jesus then reprimanded the pharisees and pointed out that the poor woman had actually contributed the most out or everyone else, because she had given her all.

Random thoughts.

I always have manymany random thoughts flowing through my head that I can't seem to capture down.






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commencement
Tuesday, July 16, 2013


Actually I don't really get what's the big deal about commencement. I mean it's fun to wear the grad gown and take pictures and all... but actually I don't really feel like it's a very happy occassion, because it signifies the end of my carefree days, where I didn't have to worry about where to go next, what's my goal, and what about the money?

I've been studying my entire life and commencement marks the end of this very safe and all too familiar phase of my life. Now I have to put myself into the real world, and having to take on adult responsibilities.

It's kind of scary honestly. And worst of all, I've no idea where I'm going. Or if any doors are going to open for me.

That's why I've no idea why people celebrate their commencement. Welcome to the REAL WORLD. this is where life only GETS HARDER. sigh.. what's there to celebrate!

Or maybe i'm being too pessimistic. Lol.
I guess with greater responsibilities also comes greater power (spending power included heheh) and greater freedom... so there's the good and bad side.

It's not that I don't want to take on the responsibilities, I think I'm lucky to not be burdened about having to support my parents or be desperate to start making money, but I am... very pressured in my own way to start making a living and not depend on my parents anymore. Of course I want to be a responsible adult and start contributing to the family and supporting myself even though they don't really need the money urgently!

I guess what I really want is to settle down somewhere and not worry about where I'm headed to next... cos I hate uncertainty!! And I really... hate this whacking everywhere process and not knowing where I'm going....

gahhh...
Like really I just want to settle down somewhere already. Somewhere. Anywhere. As long as it's like a normal job..... and I can see myself staying there for 1-2 yrs at least....

Sigh....
God please open a door for me soon and end my misery :(

I hate dangling in the middle of nowhere... not knowing where to go...








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job rant
Sunday, March 31, 2013


Honestly


It gets veryyyyy irritating when ppl KEEP asking you EVERY TIME THEY SEE YOU -- How's your job hunt? Found job already?

-.-

GAH.


I know they are just curious and concerned but it gets reallllll annoying when they have to ask every single time they see you without faillll! -.- It's like.... i just want to get a job faster so they stop asking.



Just.... STAHHHHPPP.


So anyway, I'm starting work tml ohohohoho.... some ppl just cannot believe what I'm doing as a full time job. Because it's soooo unheard of.

Hahah.


Oh yea, probably cos i'm only 1 out of the 2 ppl in the entire Singapore that's gonna do a cappella for a full time pay.

So far responses to my choice of full time job has been reallyyy varied. The mother of my tutee was super excited and thought it was real cool.

A lady at my church was like--- come again?? O.o Oh. Hmm. So... what do you do?

And then, the ultimate comment that ticked me off by a guy in my church--- What, is that a career?

Followed by-- So, you gonna sing in BARS?? -.-


Honestly, I donno if he was trying to be sarcastic or plain stupid. Sorry, you may be my church member but that was just a piss off comment.

What do you mean by 'is that a career'? -.- Well, for your info, I helped you work as a game facilitator for your company's school programmes and after a hard day's work in the hot weather wearing black polo n pants for about 5 hrs, and I only earned $25!!

For 1x HALF an hour gig I do at my JOB, I get paid $100.

TELL ME what's NOT a career now, thank you. #Bitch please #in your face

People are so narrow-minded. They cannot see beyond what is the NORM. Just because it's not the NORM doesn't mean what I'm doing is not a respectable job, or a plausible career, mind you. I probably get paid more than you. PLUS, I'm getting paid to perform. How many ppl in Singapore can say they are being paid a FULL-TIME salary to perform? Of course, no job is a bed of roses, and sai kang comes with every job you're gonna have. But it doesn't matter, bcos I get to do what I like. I have to do marketing also, but that's okay, isn't it better to do marketing for something you believe in and are passionate about, rather than just being a mouthpiece of some corporation?

Still feel like I haven't ranted enough to get the frustration your comment caused me off my chest -.- BAH.

I don't mind you giving me genuinely concerned doubts about whether there is a future in this, cause I myself also don't know, but what's with the Sarcastic- "Is that a career?" comment man.
I'm proud of what I'm gonna do, even if there may not be a future for this. But even if I only stick to this job for awhile, months, or a year, I'm gonna be proud that I can say to my kids next time- Your mother used to be a singer!

HEH. YOU CAN SAY THAT ORNOT.
You another like to sing one then look down on my job. cannot comprehend you #inyourfaceeeeeeeeee


Who knows what the future holds?
Why cancel out all possibility now just because you can't forsee what's ahead?
Even if there's nothing ahead, I believe I'll be happy just for the experience (and not to mention, the $$) for this period of time.

As I was sitting on the chair waiting to be interviewed for a corp comms govt job, (everyone's idea of an ideal, good, normal job) I was sitting there thinking to myself- will I rather come to this office, everyday, doing work I can survive on but don't really like or necessarily feel for, just go about with my work from day to day because it's my job, or would I rather do something I like, but get paid less, not have a normal, nice office, no bonuses, no big company events?

And the answer was very clear to me then that I rather choose to do music.

It was like, I knew in my heart then, just before I went in for the interview.
(And then I screwed up the interview although I tried to fake interest in the job, and left feeling like an complete idiot and failure thereafter.)


But I knew there may not be another time or opportunity in my life to get paid to do something like this. And I wanted the time (plus monetary incentive) and job pressure to push me to grow as a musician and performer. Cause I know i'll be too lazy to really take learning music seriously. By the way, music is by no means easy. It takes alot of time and effort, and it is a skill that is practiced and trained for years. It is an acquired skill that uses up a lot of time and energy to develop, just like how you train in basketball or soccer.

It took me 4 years of Sec school choir training to learn to use Diaphragm & get rid of airy voice.
The 2 yrs in JC was probably when I learnt to develop a strong sop voice.
Then it took my another about 2 yrs to transit from choir voice to pop voice.

And even until now I wouldn't say I'm that good or stable.
After so many years of performing i still get really nervous.


But yeah.



Actually I did not plan to pursue a music career. Neither did I plan to make this a full time job. But it was like for a long time in my heart I felt that if I could, I would. I just never thought I could. I never thought I was good enough. I never thought that I could go somewhere with this. I never thought there would be a future, or an opportunity.

But as I reflected upon my internship experiences, and thought about what I would like to do as a career, all the things I did during my internship didn't seem to fit. I got exposed to what the advertising/ PR/ media/ corp comms industry does.... and I could SURVIVE doing it.... but I would just be an Existence, someone out there trying to make a living.... just doing a job for the sake of a job.

I would be someone following my bosses' orders, doing what they told me to do, writing press releases and articles about what the company wants me to say. I'll be advocating causes and running ads/events for causes just for the sake of it, not because I truly believe in it.

Essentially, I would just be a paid, mouthpiece for the corporation I'm working for.










3:21 AM | back to top

Monday, June 06, 2011


Shifted! To www.cinnamon-churros.onsugar.com !
Doesn't that sound sweet... cinnamon-churros on SUGAR woohoo


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Singapore Elections 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Decided to blog,

cos i have no mood to study @ all... or at least, i'm jus trying to evade from studying till my guilty conscience hits me hard enuf. hahah

Anw, this year's elections is lk how happening man!!

And srsly,
for the first time in my life, i acty CARE about the political situation in singapore. LOL..
and it's not just me, it seems lk alot of youths are becoming more and more aware of the situation in Singapore, and its seems like many people ARE NOT LIKING IT.

Just shared a note on FB, an argument against PAP written by a 21 year old, and it has already garnered like what, 1308 likes!!
Times are changing, who said Singaporean youths r politcally apathetic! I keep seeing posts on the political election all over FB... and such sentiments r spreading like wildfire.
Social media is one dangerous platform. Just look at Egypt. Govt is in trouble man if they dont change... srsly

Altho i dont really noe much abt politics in singapore, cos like i said i really nv used to care, but i'm starting to notice how the govt's policies affect my everyday life, thanks to the no. of foreign workers in Singapore, and now I really feel stronglyyyy that the govt shud wake up their ideas & start changing.

Maybe they have sound policies, maybe it's for the greater good, but STILL, convince us lah. Some things they do like raise the ministers pay to astronomical levels (like how many times more than OBAMA leh, can u believe it), and letting in sooooo many PRs, i really cannot accept. The policies may be sound, but one thing i really cant stand is that bcos of the burgeoning population, I am realllyyy hating public transport. How issit that it's always like peak hour every time of the day? Seems like a small issue compared to creating jobs blabla but still it's affecting our everyday lives. (or at least mine lol). Maybe bcos i dont SEE the JOBS it has created for ppl, but i only see how conjested the MRT is everyday. But anw, here's Lee Hsien Long's argument on bringing foreign workers to Singapore.


The policy sounds good, but i dont think they mentally prepared the people or did enuf to address transport/housing problems becos of these foreign workers v well. And not that i'm racist or discriminate against them but it's really uncomfortable to see sooo many strange n foreign ppl around. Makes me wonder if they really need to bring in SO MANY... and how stringent their selection criteria of foreign workers are, or are they just letting any tom dick and harry into the country. See the online citizen's argument against the PM's speech here. I thought that there was a quota on the no. of foreign workers that the companies can hire but according to the online citizen i was wrong??

More govt's arguments on the bringing in of foreign workers to singapore here.
Can u believeee the no. of foreign workers in singapore is lk almost 40% now?!?! Ok, if u tell me u need to bring in foreign workers to come and build houses, then go back home, or work in those low end jobs that Singaporeans don wanna do, thats fine. But for service industry oso?? Really got no singaporeans wanna work in service industry like MBS meh? R u kidding me. And srsly, 40% of the jobs in Singapore need to be filled by these foreign workers? REALLY? And do we really want to venture into the labour-intensive manufacturing industry wen that was what Singapore wanted to move out from in the first place, into a knowledge-based society?? ( from what I still rmb in my social studies textbook)
Apparently in the article they argue that the manufacturing sector is v impt blabla, but cant they outsource manufacturers and just leave the HQs in Singapore or smth? Is it really necessary to be "made in singapore" as well? Isnt that what alot of companies do, altho of cos, it facilitates communication if ur manufacturing and HQ & stuff is all in the same country. I donno. But i'm not convinced. Telling me that we need this so our GDP will grow is not enuf.


Second thing I'm not convinced about is the ministers' pay. Like many other ppl in Singapore, I think we are all not convinced. You can argue however you want man, but it's not gonna convince people. So, why dont u do smth about it instead of trying to justify it, or being assertive about it. It's not working. Ppl are not so blind nowadays. Apparently the govt says this is necessary, to attract quality people. Yea, right. I think it's just gg attract greedy people. And result in elitism. Srsly. Not that I'm against the ministers having a high pay, but to the current extent that they are receiving, it's just comes off as them trying to feed their greed?? Do they really need so much money. It's jus ridiculous.


Another thing that I dont like, is the controlled press in Singapore. Let's see how long the government can keep up with that, with the reign of the internet! And one of the reasons why i stopped watching Singapore shows (other than lacklustre storylines) is how I felt they were just infusing and driving the govt's messages in it. Like there was one period of time when almost all the dramas were just revolving around families. And that was about the time when the govt wanted to introduce 5 day work weeks to promote family time and stuff. I got so sick of it. And then halfway during the show, the actors will say things like "do you know smoking will lead to blablablala" then "oh really? I should go and get my health checked now!" -.- WAH, very lame leh. Srsly. I watch alr i was lk wth. Why must infuse the message until so.... fake.
And from the FB post, it seems like alot of issues are swept under the rug so we don't know about it. It kinda scares me, I know the Singapore government is autocratic, but I dint think it would be unscrupulous. The thing about operation coldstore ? Altho of cos i'm glad Singapore dint turn communist lah, but... xu yao zuo dao zhe yang ma. O.o makes me wonder if that's their policy until today. I really don like it that there is a lack of transparency, altho I mean of cos, it's normal for e govt to control its image, but there is a seriousss lack of transparency, and it's not fair that we dont know both sides of the story. Makes me get the feeling that the govt thinks that the average citizen are undiscerning, and that only they know best. I dont like it cos if this continues, it's gonna foster elitism among the ministers in Singapore & they're just gg dismiss e citizen's concerns.
Ok so maybeee they needed to control e press last time bcos Singapore was unstable and most of the population uneducated then, but srsly, I'm sure the population today knows better, and now e position of the govt is secure. Nobody refutes the great amount of contribution that the PAP has done to bring Singapore to what is today. But having sucha low level of transparency, communication and involvement of e citizens in the country's affairs is akin to treating Singaporeans like a "baby". Just like parenting, being autocratic and dictatorial is not gonna work for young adults anymore. I really think majority of the Singapore population are sensible people, and being unable to treat us as sensible adults is really quite an insult, and if ure doing sucha good job, then why do u need to be afraid and have to control your image and the media with such a tight fist? Just makes me feel that there r alot of things that they are afraid will come to light. And also it's quite insulting cos doing so just seems like they have such a low level of trust in Singaporeans and think that we are an ungrateful population which will change sides easily over some unhappiness, so they dont dare to divulge information.


With this said, I'm not dismissing that the govt is effective or efficient. Even with the increase in GST, and the rising cost of living, I think I'm still living a reasonably comfortable life, so I'm not complaining. Yet. But as mentioned above, some of the things they do, I'm not convinced. And I really dont like the lack of communication and transparency. I think they need better PR, and need to change their "parenting" style.

So maybe voting for the opposition will knock some sense into them. Lol. But with the 1308 likes on FB & strong opposition this year, scully everyone think like me, and thinks tt everyone else is voting for the PAP anw so they wont be ousted, and ends up they really get ousted!! That will be jialat. I don't hope that the PAP will be ousted, I just hope to break the monopoly for a more balanced and transparent govt! Not sure if voting for the opposition will help with that, or just make the government scattered and divided. And scully the opposition is even more autocratic. Who knows?

My dad say better vote for PAP this year cos of the strong opposition. LOL. I think most of us altho we voice out many unhappiness but at the end of the day we dont want to see PAP go. Just to make them less complacent and wake up their idea!


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eye candies
Tuesday, April 26, 2011


ZAAHHH I HATE BLOGGER!!

the pictures never appear in the order i want it too!!! ZZZ!


Just felt like posting pictures of my eye candies cos they're soooooo handsommmmeeee~
makes me feel happy seeing them on my blog too <3 AHAHAHA

Colton Dixon. American Idol 2010 contestant! SOOOO hawwwtt... not usually into ang mohs... but he's too good looking alr. Hahaha. But he dint make it into the top 20 by justtt abiiitt! Sad.



Louis koo! I really really liked him alot last time esp after watching one of his shows.. but i forgot the name!! argh... Qin Shi Ji or smth... he is from the future then he travel back into the past that show... i'm sure q alot of ppl watch b4! It's damn good lah that show... anw he's lk jus so smart n cool n witty in that show <3 Perfect

Raymond lam. Just find him charming. Hahah.. actually i like alot of the Hong Kong TVB actors... all so handsome!!


And finally,

the hottie which i'm currently swooning overr.........


Dai Yang Tian. Waaaaa... this pic of him is lk dropdead gorgeous. *faints* HAHAHAH IT'S GG be my IPHONE DPPPP. (Back @ you QI hng)

Shuaiiiii~~~~ XD How can anyone be soooo good looking!!! (and he's from lk.. Chinaaa???- hahah no racism intended just saying from observations in general :p) Hahahah lucky he come to singapore <3 <3 <3 HAHAH altho i never watch Singapore tv shows acty. But he is really buay tahan handsome XD Everytime I see the bus with his advertisement I will just stare. I dont even rmb what product he was advertising... some drink i think.. the ad abit lame lah but with his chiselled good looks who bothers to look @ what he's advertising... HAHAHAH <3

Why so shuaiiiiiiii~~~~~~

sighhh~~ HAHAHAHAH can't take it!


But anw i jus hua chi for fun only lah, in reality, handsome guys have sucky characters.

SAD, but true man.

Usually like playboys, character cmi one, chao ah bengs.... and now, gay.

Seriously, now i see handsome guys who are dressed well, first thing tt comes to my mind is-

IS HE GAY?


Damn saddening can. LOL. WHAT IS THIS WORLD TURNING TO.

Already got short supply of handsome guys (and oversupply of chio, smart & nice girls) and now they r turning gay! SRSLY!


And the ones who are straight usually cant even be bothered about their looks. HAHAHA.

WHY SO IRONIC! Cant guys be (a little) vain for the gals too?? why only gays care??

And ya lah. Anw, got plus got minus one lor. Guy got looks, usually means no character. LOL. Just my "logic". Hahaha.. from life's experiences & observations.... (not tt i know or have seen many to begin with acty... LOL)... but if you look at artistes oso...like EDISON CHEN. TSKS.

And heard that Louis Koo v aloof or smth oso. Raymond lam recently got scandal with a voluptuous model.



OH WELL, Life is never perfect rite?

Just look can already lorrr... HAHAHA...







































































































































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