I was plagued with a terribleterrible dream last night =X
It was abt Alvls results X( *shudders* If you're an Alvler, i strongly discourage you to read on.
Well anw.. I dreamt that it was.. THE DAY. Everyone went back to Meridian's Hall. And weirdly... they like... read out the results one by one. HAha.. Well my dream is weird la.. everyone had a slip of paper with everyone's results. Then on that slip of paper, there would be the names, the Grades and the points. I dunno why got points but my dreams are jus weird and have no logic la k.
So anw... they read out the names one by one.. u were not supposed to look for ur own name but after awhile i just went to look.... and to my.. absolute HORROR... I got all Ds. D D D D Dieeeee. And Worst.. i had like.. one of the lowest points in the entire co hord... i was in the bottom!! Den i looked on the list and Val and Doris Got the same points.. Haha... and they got like 2As one B kind of thing( see i dream you all do well ok!)
That dream realli left me in a realli.. depressing feeling... feeling of regret... helplessness... hopelessness.. worthlessness.. the dream felt so real. Ok maybe i wun get all Ds... u noe... but i think.. just one D is enuf to ruin my whole life. ( i think i'll get D for chem.. i realli screwed chem big time.. =X) Then i woke up thinking... die la.. why i throw away all my lecture notes.. shudnt have thrown... i think i might need them...
I really darent think of the consequences if i cant get into a uni here. I dun wanna go overseas!!=(( and i dun wanna retake A's.. tts jus sad man.
Then all the regret starts sinking in... why dint study harder... why dint.. whydintwhydintwhydintt...>.<
Then the feeling of worthlessness starts hitting me... not smart alr still not hardworking and not attentive not anythinggg.... gonna be the black sheep of my smart alec family
Haizz... jus suddenly feel really very ultra super shi bai la.
But what's done is done.. I can only ask for God's grace now to be with me.. to help me accept the outcome.. of what has already been sealed..
no point regretting now.. just better start bracing up for the day I've to face the truth.. and it's coming really soon. Maybe its better to get it done and over with... be depressed for awhile.. and then move on.. den to be afraid of what is coming.. and feebly hoping to escape what you can't avoid.
Sigh.. ignore me. Its.. pre-Alvl results blues.
Though dark be the night, and long be the day, Lord help me follow in thy perfect way. Though cometh sorrow, though great be my pain, Lord make me trust thee, come sunshine or rain.. The steps of the good man are honoured by the Lord, and he delighteth in his way, Though he falls.. he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholdeth him with His hand
I was plagued with a terribleterrible dream last night =X
It was abt Alvls results X( *shudders* If you're an Alvler, i strongly discourage you to read on.
Well anw.. I dreamt that it was.. THE DAY. Everyone went back to Meridian's Hall. And weirdly... they like... read out the results one by one. HAha.. Well my dream is weird la.. everyone had a slip of paper with everyone's results. Then on that slip of paper, there would be the names, the Grades and the points. I dunno why got points but my dreams are jus weird and have no logic la k.
So anw... they read out the names one by one.. u were not supposed to look for ur own name but after awhile i just went to look.... and to my.. absolute HORROR... I got all Ds. D D D D Dieeeee. And Worst.. i had like.. one of the lowest points in the entire co hord... i was in the bottom!! Den i looked on the list and Val and Doris Got the same points.. Haha... and they got like 2As one B kind of thing( see i dream you all do well ok!)
That dream realli left me in a realli.. depressing feeling... feeling of regret... helplessness... hopelessness.. worthlessness.. the dream felt so real. Ok maybe i wun get all Ds... u noe... but i think.. just one D is enuf to ruin my whole life. ( i think i'll get D for chem.. i realli screwed chem big time.. =X) Then i woke up thinking... die la.. why i throw away all my lecture notes.. shudnt have thrown... i think i might need them...
I really darent think of the consequences if i cant get into a uni here. I dun wanna go overseas!!=(( and i dun wanna retake A's.. tts jus sad man.
Then all the regret starts sinking in... why dint study harder... why dint.. whydintwhydintwhydintt...>.<
Then the feeling of worthlessness starts hitting me... not smart alr still not hardworking and not attentive not anythinggg.... gonna be the black sheep of my smart alec family
Haizz... jus suddenly feel really very ultra super shi bai la.
But what's done is done.. I can only ask for God's grace now to be with me.. to help me accept the outcome.. of what has already been sealed..
no point regretting now.. just better start bracing up for the day I've to face the truth.. and it's coming really soon. Maybe its better to get it done and over with... be depressed for awhile.. and then move on.. den to be afraid of what is coming.. and feebly hoping to escape what you can't avoid.
Sigh.. ignore me. Its.. pre-Alvl results blues.
Though dark be the night, and long be the day, Lord help me follow in thy perfect way. Though cometh sorrow, though great be my pain, Lord make me trust thee, come sunshine or rain.. The steps of the good man are honoured by the Lord, and he delighteth in his way, Though he falls.. he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholdeth him with His hand
i had a dream...
