This is the day... this is the day that the Lord has made.. that the Lord has made... We will rejoce... we will rejoce and be glad in it and be gladd... innn.. .ittt.... >.<
Rejoce in the Lordd alwaysss and Againn i say rej..o..ce.. >>.<<
Wahahahahahah! ALL THE BEZ PEEPS! I hope we will all be rejocing togethaa!! >.<
Altho thinking back at the JC and trying to mug but cant focus times really makes me wonder howww im ever gonna be rejocinggg.. >.<
Yes but I know that God loves his children... and He will take care of me... I dunno whether if it is His will for me to get good results... but I know that.. whatever the results.. He has made a way out for me..
But the initial shock of doing badly will definitely hit me of cos... thus... im trying to.. tune myself psychologically... so i wun be at an utter loss if the worst case scenario really happens(Oh man i can see it happening before my very eyes noww..>.<) Really.. i've been imagining the scene tml... looking at my script and its like... Ok i dun wanna say... *Shudders* ok.. its like.. smth like my "dream" results.. then what am i going to do??
I wish i cud silently slip away from the cheering crowd and just be alone.. but tt will be impossible of cos.. so.. if i'm really devastated beyong redemption.. I'll try to walk out of the hall and ignore everyone's "Eh how did u do?"s as best as i cud with a faint smile and a shake of the head, and walk out of the school and find some quiet spot to cry i guess >.< I guess i'd rather be alone.. dun wanna spoil ppl's mood ya noe.. wen they shud be rejocing over their results and stuff... n i wudnt want to know other's results too... it'd jus be more depressing i guess. Wow i think im realy escapist.. but i really dunno how im gonna face the world if tt happens. O.o Guess i'll need some time to cool b4 i finally sms someone n face the world again O.o
In case of disappointing but not totally hopeless results.. I'd probably jus cry in front of my frens.. n then i'd be fine.. i hope =X
I can so imagine.. like Conrad's face... tml.. wen he's about to pass my results.. oh man...its like.. the teacher will alr noe all ur results ma.. so u'll probably be able to guess ur results from the look of his face. i can jus imagine.. his face.. straight.. not commenting.. jus handing me my script..bcos inside he's thinking... Haiiiissss... >.<
Think i shud bring sunglasses and tissue tml in case i bawl my eyes out lk crazy.. i think i can start alr jus thinking about it >.<
Well but like my temp fren( temp staff fren) said.. Better to cry now than later... So.. at least have some mental preparation first... hoping for the best but expecting the worst.. is best... so maybe u'll be able to deal with it better if it does happen which i ... hope.. not =X
So.. we're all building a safety net for ourselves now. We all say we're scared.. and we all keep saying we will do so badly and flop like crazy... but at the back of our mind.. tell ourselves that we won't.. it won't be so bad..and we have this hope that cmon it wun be as bad as we think...
so if smth bad happens.. at least we have prepared ourselves for the worst alr.. so things wun seem tt bad.
I just hope my "safety net" doesnt break from the weight of reality tml =X
And to all of you other A lvler Peeps.. I hope u all wun have to use ur safety net at all!! GOOD LUCK! ALL THE BEST!! =))
This is the day... this is the day that the Lord has made.. that the Lord has made... We will rejoce... we will rejoce and be glad in it and be gladd... innn.. .ittt.... >.<
Rejoce in the Lordd alwaysss and Againn i say rej..o..ce.. >>.<<
Wahahahahahah! ALL THE BEZ PEEPS! I hope we will all be rejocing togethaa!! >.<
Altho thinking back at the JC and trying to mug but cant focus times really makes me wonder howww im ever gonna be rejocinggg.. >.<
Yes but I know that God loves his children... and He will take care of me... I dunno whether if it is His will for me to get good results... but I know that.. whatever the results.. He has made a way out for me..
But the initial shock of doing badly will definitely hit me of cos... thus... im trying to.. tune myself psychologically... so i wun be at an utter loss if the worst case scenario really happens(Oh man i can see it happening before my very eyes noww..>.<) Really.. i've been imagining the scene tml... looking at my script and its like... Ok i dun wanna say... *Shudders* ok.. its like.. smth like my "dream" results.. then what am i going to do??
I wish i cud silently slip away from the cheering crowd and just be alone.. but tt will be impossible of cos.. so.. if i'm really devastated beyong redemption.. I'll try to walk out of the hall and ignore everyone's "Eh how did u do?"s as best as i cud with a faint smile and a shake of the head, and walk out of the school and find some quiet spot to cry i guess >.< I guess i'd rather be alone.. dun wanna spoil ppl's mood ya noe.. wen they shud be rejocing over their results and stuff... n i wudnt want to know other's results too... it'd jus be more depressing i guess. Wow i think im realy escapist.. but i really dunno how im gonna face the world if tt happens. O.o Guess i'll need some time to cool b4 i finally sms someone n face the world again O.o
In case of disappointing but not totally hopeless results.. I'd probably jus cry in front of my frens.. n then i'd be fine.. i hope =X
I can so imagine.. like Conrad's face... tml.. wen he's about to pass my results.. oh man...its like.. the teacher will alr noe all ur results ma.. so u'll probably be able to guess ur results from the look of his face. i can jus imagine.. his face.. straight.. not commenting.. jus handing me my script..bcos inside he's thinking... Haiiiissss... >.<
Think i shud bring sunglasses and tissue tml in case i bawl my eyes out lk crazy.. i think i can start alr jus thinking about it >.<
Well but like my temp fren( temp staff fren) said.. Better to cry now than later... So.. at least have some mental preparation first... hoping for the best but expecting the worst.. is best... so maybe u'll be able to deal with it better if it does happen which i ... hope.. not =X
So.. we're all building a safety net for ourselves now. We all say we're scared.. and we all keep saying we will do so badly and flop like crazy... but at the back of our mind.. tell ourselves that we won't.. it won't be so bad..and we have this hope that cmon it wun be as bad as we think...
so if smth bad happens.. at least we have prepared ourselves for the worst alr.. so things wun seem tt bad.
I just hope my "safety net" doesnt break from the weight of reality tml =X
And to all of you other A lvler Peeps.. I hope u all wun have to use ur safety net at all!! GOOD LUCK! ALL THE BEST!! =))
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