Im in a realliiii bad mood now. Feeling super emo.. for some reasons n no good reasons. Think ive been thinking too much n listening to emo songs. Tt got my saddd mood started n den.. as Tues is my free day~ ziqi asked me to go watch sunrise with him at east coast! yea i noe its kinda crazy cos ill have to wake up ard 4? lol i think i can use comp n stay up until 4am lor xp i was jus starting to get excited cos the deprived me has never watched sunrise at the beach before so i was lk thinking wad food i shud bring.. But WHY did i even THINK OF IT seriously. WHY wen i shud have KNOWN that my parents will NEVER LET ME.
They never let me stay over at chalets. Never let me stay over during orientation camps either even tho its IN SCHOOL cannot this cannot that... last time even better cannot go out if the no. of guys outnumber the girls.. =.=
If i go out a few consecutive days they will start complaining... they make lame excuses to keep me at home lk yst go out alr wad cannot everyday go out sch start alr time to do homework blablabla waste time yadayada even tho there isnt lk pressing homework or wad =.= lk as if i stay at home=i doing homework. They SO cudnt be more wronggg. On sunday i came home at 9pm after eating dinner with ziqi and they COMPLAIN its LATE They say dun lk me to travel to the east cos they say its ''far'' yea 1 hr is quite far but how big is singapore really
19 yrs old alr still have curfew at 11.30pm
Yes i knoww its Alll for my GOOODD... but seriously they still think im a kid who doesnt know how to manage her time.. hu only know how to pa pa zao( keep going out) or lk im acty a havoc person who will neglect homework to socialise or come back late cos i go clubbing?? I noe u can never be too sure.. but i can really safely say tt all my frens n the ppl i know or hangout with are really good n decent ppl and I'm acty a v guai kia ok i noe wen i shud study.
And watching sunrise is a sweet thing to do rightt~ lazing on the beach listening to music n chatting~ BUT they JUS have to XIANG Y~ altho they dint explicitly say.. i obviously can tell they imagine that things are gonna get TOO ROMANTIC at the beach~ =.= Stay overnite at camps they think i gonna kena rape... now go to beach oso they think lk tt!!
They realli WATCH TOOO MUCH TVVVV READ TOO MUCH newspaper articles abt girls getting molested/rape or underage ppl having sex n dunno wad sai until they have to keep IMAGINING things
SERIOUSLY its lk 5am at a public beach n we'd probably be too sleepy at that time to do anythinggg except lie down n stone =.=
Maybe its good tt im sheltered n protected n all.. but have they ever wondered if they are doing me more harm den good by restricting me, they've acty prevented bad n also good things from happening to me.. i miss out on all the socialising at chalets etc i miss out on all the fun n experiences ; they make me afraid to step out from my safety zone; they make me a sua ku who hasnt been to so many places in singapore before; they've made me too protected too reliant too dependent on other ppl until im realli damn blur n sua ku ok maybe i am alr naturally blur n sua ku la but all the 'protection' jus made me worst. ha.
If i had children i wish they wun be like me. Go CHUANG~ wen ure young~ of cos not anyhow chuang la... but yea let loose a little if its not too extreme~ Do crazy things once in awhile~
If not seriously NO LIFE man. If ure scared of everyth.. worrying abt everyth. sheesh. Hide in ur own safety box.
I don't blame them im not angry or resentful i jus feel v pek chek at them. I understand their intentions but i cant agree with them n i really jus feel v bu shuang.
Sighhh But for now im still papa's little girl and theres nth i can do abt it. Shall hide in my safety corner n suck my thumb for now.
Im in a realliiii bad mood now. Feeling super emo.. for some reasons n no good reasons. Think ive been thinking too much n listening to emo songs. Tt got my saddd mood started n den.. as Tues is my free day~ ziqi asked me to go watch sunrise with him at east coast! yea i noe its kinda crazy cos ill have to wake up ard 4? lol i think i can use comp n stay up until 4am lor xp i was jus starting to get excited cos the deprived me has never watched sunrise at the beach before so i was lk thinking wad food i shud bring.. But WHY did i even THINK OF IT seriously. WHY wen i shud have KNOWN that my parents will NEVER LET ME.
They never let me stay over at chalets. Never let me stay over during orientation camps either even tho its IN SCHOOL cannot this cannot that... last time even better cannot go out if the no. of guys outnumber the girls.. =.=
If i go out a few consecutive days they will start complaining... they make lame excuses to keep me at home lk yst go out alr wad cannot everyday go out sch start alr time to do homework blablabla waste time yadayada even tho there isnt lk pressing homework or wad =.= lk as if i stay at home=i doing homework. They SO cudnt be more wronggg. On sunday i came home at 9pm after eating dinner with ziqi and they COMPLAIN its LATE They say dun lk me to travel to the east cos they say its ''far'' yea 1 hr is quite far but how big is singapore really
19 yrs old alr still have curfew at 11.30pm
Yes i knoww its Alll for my GOOODD... but seriously they still think im a kid who doesnt know how to manage her time.. hu only know how to pa pa zao( keep going out) or lk im acty a havoc person who will neglect homework to socialise or come back late cos i go clubbing?? I noe u can never be too sure.. but i can really safely say tt all my frens n the ppl i know or hangout with are really good n decent ppl and I'm acty a v guai kia ok i noe wen i shud study.
And watching sunrise is a sweet thing to do rightt~ lazing on the beach listening to music n chatting~ BUT they JUS have to XIANG Y~ altho they dint explicitly say.. i obviously can tell they imagine that things are gonna get TOO ROMANTIC at the beach~ =.= Stay overnite at camps they think i gonna kena rape... now go to beach oso they think lk tt!!
They realli WATCH TOOO MUCH TVVVV READ TOO MUCH newspaper articles abt girls getting molested/rape or underage ppl having sex n dunno wad sai until they have to keep IMAGINING things
SERIOUSLY its lk 5am at a public beach n we'd probably be too sleepy at that time to do anythinggg except lie down n stone =.=
Maybe its good tt im sheltered n protected n all.. but have they ever wondered if they are doing me more harm den good by restricting me, they've acty prevented bad n also good things from happening to me.. i miss out on all the socialising at chalets etc i miss out on all the fun n experiences ; they make me afraid to step out from my safety zone; they make me a sua ku who hasnt been to so many places in singapore before; they've made me too protected too reliant too dependent on other ppl until im realli damn blur n sua ku ok maybe i am alr naturally blur n sua ku la but all the 'protection' jus made me worst. ha.
If i had children i wish they wun be like me. Go CHUANG~ wen ure young~ of cos not anyhow chuang la... but yea let loose a little if its not too extreme~ Do crazy things once in awhile~
If not seriously NO LIFE man. If ure scared of everyth.. worrying abt everyth. sheesh. Hide in ur own safety box.
I don't blame them im not angry or resentful i jus feel v pek chek at them. I understand their intentions but i cant agree with them n i really jus feel v bu shuang.
Sighhh But for now im still papa's little girl and theres nth i can do abt it. Shall hide in my safety corner n suck my thumb for now.
wadever
