i think i say tt almost everytime i blog... hahahaha
Well uh.. lemme say CONGRATTSS to those who did GREAT for A's X) and DUN WORRY hu those hu dint do as well as expected... cos... it's not the end of the worllddd and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel! Hope everyone gets into their desired Unis =DD
Haha.. I dint do very well.. in fact its acty quite suckkyy but u noe... wen i saw my results.. i heaved a BIG sigh of relieve.. *PPPPPPPPhhhhhhhhhhhhhOOOoooooooooooooooooooooo* XD Well the results were kinda expected.. so im pretty fine with it tho it aint good =D
You see I have low expectations of myself. Aha. Never did have high expectations wen it comes to academics anw. In fact i was sooo thankful i scraped a B for Chem cos i felt i totally screwed the paper! And well... getting C for maths...dunno how come got C lei I oso felt the paper was quite easy... mus be sumwhere got careless mistakes(as usual) and others did reallyreally well i guess. Anw... from Consistent Us to a C is lk quite a feat huh? Seriously I have never got past 35 marks for maths all thruout my Jc life(save for one stats test) so i ought to be quite thankful huh? See I told you i have low expectations of myself. Aha. Well it's good to be optimistic XD
Anyway, upon some self reflection, i think i deserved my mediocre grades.. handled my jc life pretty badly i wud say... slpin late...making up the lack of slp in lectures n still not studying as hard as i shud have. I felt i worked harder for o lvls and even Psle than for A's!
Maybe cos i was studying subjs i Dun like and have no aptitude in? Then again I dun think i have any flair for any subjects.. ahaha.
Anyway it feels real good to let go the burden of fearing the worst. I'm just so thankful tt I have the chance to go Uni... to be emancipated from the dark ol' Jc days and start on a fresh, clean slate =D I'm just so glad I have the chance to move on! I'll Study harder in UNI! REALLY I WILL!! I never want to have that pathetic feeling of having no motivation to study again.. i wanna be MOTIVATED and WORK HARDERR!
I wanna LISTEN during LESSONS and MUGG lk i was supposed to MUG in JC but obviously DINT
I wanna make sure i have my 7 hrs of SLEEP a DAY! (7hrs outside of lessons)
N I'm Excited tt i'll(most likely) be going to the same fac as my FRENS Hoi and Qh n I'm sure I'll see many more familiar faces in NUS ARTS and Anw all my frens from the East will have to come to the WEST AHAHHA and maybe they can come n SLeepover at my place!! HAHA.
Ok now coming back to things which are gonna be more recent.. I have 3 more wks till the end of my contract with ASTAR and i DUNNO WAD TO DO AFTER THAT.
I dun even noe if i shud leave by then... after all I have ONE other Temp fren in ASTAR n I'm used to the work n environment there N i get to surf net n shake legs in air con room during boring dayss n I dunno wad im gonna do if i find another job elsewhere O.o I'm most afraid of having no frens.. seriously... even if the workplace stinks and the work stinks and the food places ard there stinks.. I think i can get by as long as I have Frens! Conversely if the job is good and the environment is good and the food is good but i have no frens.. I think i wun survive a month! I think the ppl matters ALOT. The Perm staff in Astar are nice... but they are ADULTS and they have their own Adult frens alr.. so it hard to mix with them. Haha so now me and Seri are lk each other's onli frens in ASTAR! If she dun go work I wudnt go either!! N vice versa! One day I went to work late.. and she called me afraid tt i wasn't going to work! Hahaha! She said she'd Kill me if i din't give her advance notice tt i wasnt going to work. And seriously i wud have too if she did the same to me! HAHA. I dun wanna da bao food and eat in front of my comp at the desk for lunch..>.< *shudders*
This is the day... this is the day that the Lord has made.. that the Lord has made... We will rejoce... we will rejoce and be glad in it and be gladd... innn.. .ittt.... >.<
Rejoce in the Lordd alwaysss and Againn i say rej..o..ce.. >>.<<
Wahahahahahah! ALL THE BEZ PEEPS! I hope we will all be rejocing togethaa!! >.<
Altho thinking back at the JC and trying to mug but cant focus times really makes me wonder howww im ever gonna be rejocinggg.. >.<
Yes but I know that God loves his children... and He will take care of me... I dunno whether if it is His will for me to get good results... but I know that.. whatever the results.. He has made a way out for me..
But the initial shock of doing badly will definitely hit me of cos... thus... im trying to.. tune myself psychologically... so i wun be at an utter loss if the worst case scenario really happens(Oh man i can see it happening before my very eyes noww..>.<) Really.. i've been imagining the scene tml... looking at my script and its like... Ok i dun wanna say... *Shudders* ok.. its like.. smth like my "dream" results.. then what am i going to do??
I wish i cud silently slip away from the cheering crowd and just be alone.. but tt will be impossible of cos.. so.. if i'm really devastated beyong redemption.. I'll try to walk out of the hall and ignore everyone's "Eh how did u do?"s as best as i cud with a faint smile and a shake of the head, and walk out of the school and find some quiet spot to cry i guess >.< I guess i'd rather be alone.. dun wanna spoil ppl's mood ya noe.. wen they shud be rejocing over their results and stuff... n i wudnt want to know other's results too... it'd jus be more depressing i guess. Wow i think im realy escapist.. but i really dunno how im gonna face the world if tt happens. O.o Guess i'll need some time to cool b4 i finally sms someone n face the world again O.o
In case of disappointing but not totally hopeless results.. I'd probably jus cry in front of my frens.. n then i'd be fine.. i hope =X
I can so imagine.. like Conrad's face... tml.. wen he's about to pass my results.. oh man...its like.. the teacher will alr noe all ur results ma.. so u'll probably be able to guess ur results from the look of his face. i can jus imagine.. his face.. straight.. not commenting.. jus handing me my script..bcos inside he's thinking... Haiiiissss... >.<
Think i shud bring sunglasses and tissue tml in case i bawl my eyes out lk crazy.. i think i can start alr jus thinking about it >.<
Well but like my temp fren( temp staff fren) said.. Better to cry now than later... So.. at least have some mental preparation first... hoping for the best but expecting the worst.. is best... so maybe u'll be able to deal with it better if it does happen which i ... hope.. not =X
So.. we're all building a safety net for ourselves now. We all say we're scared.. and we all keep saying we will do so badly and flop like crazy... but at the back of our mind.. tell ourselves that we won't.. it won't be so bad..and we have this hope that cmon it wun be as bad as we think...
so if smth bad happens.. at least we have prepared ourselves for the worst alr.. so things wun seem tt bad.
I just hope my "safety net" doesnt break from the weight of reality tml =X
And to all of you other A lvler Peeps.. I hope u all wun have to use ur safety net at all!! GOOD LUCK! ALL THE BEST!! =))
i think i say tt almost everytime i blog... hahahaha
Well uh.. lemme say CONGRATTSS to those who did GREAT for A's X) and DUN WORRY hu those hu dint do as well as expected... cos... it's not the end of the worllddd and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel! Hope everyone gets into their desired Unis =DD
Haha.. I dint do very well.. in fact its acty quite suckkyy but u noe... wen i saw my results.. i heaved a BIG sigh of relieve.. *PPPPPPPPhhhhhhhhhhhhhOOOoooooooooooooooooooooo* XD Well the results were kinda expected.. so im pretty fine with it tho it aint good =D
You see I have low expectations of myself. Aha. Never did have high expectations wen it comes to academics anw. In fact i was sooo thankful i scraped a B for Chem cos i felt i totally screwed the paper! And well... getting C for maths...dunno how come got C lei I oso felt the paper was quite easy... mus be sumwhere got careless mistakes(as usual) and others did reallyreally well i guess. Anw... from Consistent Us to a C is lk quite a feat huh? Seriously I have never got past 35 marks for maths all thruout my Jc life(save for one stats test) so i ought to be quite thankful huh? See I told you i have low expectations of myself. Aha. Well it's good to be optimistic XD
Anyway, upon some self reflection, i think i deserved my mediocre grades.. handled my jc life pretty badly i wud say... slpin late...making up the lack of slp in lectures n still not studying as hard as i shud have. I felt i worked harder for o lvls and even Psle than for A's!
Maybe cos i was studying subjs i Dun like and have no aptitude in? Then again I dun think i have any flair for any subjects.. ahaha.
Anyway it feels real good to let go the burden of fearing the worst. I'm just so thankful tt I have the chance to go Uni... to be emancipated from the dark ol' Jc days and start on a fresh, clean slate =D I'm just so glad I have the chance to move on! I'll Study harder in UNI! REALLY I WILL!! I never want to have that pathetic feeling of having no motivation to study again.. i wanna be MOTIVATED and WORK HARDERR!
I wanna LISTEN during LESSONS and MUGG lk i was supposed to MUG in JC but obviously DINT
I wanna make sure i have my 7 hrs of SLEEP a DAY! (7hrs outside of lessons)
N I'm Excited tt i'll(most likely) be going to the same fac as my FRENS Hoi and Qh n I'm sure I'll see many more familiar faces in NUS ARTS and Anw all my frens from the East will have to come to the WEST AHAHHA and maybe they can come n SLeepover at my place!! HAHA.
Ok now coming back to things which are gonna be more recent.. I have 3 more wks till the end of my contract with ASTAR and i DUNNO WAD TO DO AFTER THAT.
I dun even noe if i shud leave by then... after all I have ONE other Temp fren in ASTAR n I'm used to the work n environment there N i get to surf net n shake legs in air con room during boring dayss n I dunno wad im gonna do if i find another job elsewhere O.o I'm most afraid of having no frens.. seriously... even if the workplace stinks and the work stinks and the food places ard there stinks.. I think i can get by as long as I have Frens! Conversely if the job is good and the environment is good and the food is good but i have no frens.. I think i wun survive a month! I think the ppl matters ALOT. The Perm staff in Astar are nice... but they are ADULTS and they have their own Adult frens alr.. so it hard to mix with them. Haha so now me and Seri are lk each other's onli frens in ASTAR! If she dun go work I wudnt go either!! N vice versa! One day I went to work late.. and she called me afraid tt i wasn't going to work! Hahaha! She said she'd Kill me if i din't give her advance notice tt i wasnt going to work. And seriously i wud have too if she did the same to me! HAHA. I dun wanna da bao food and eat in front of my comp at the desk for lunch..>.< *shudders*
This is the day... this is the day that the Lord has made.. that the Lord has made... We will rejoce... we will rejoce and be glad in it and be gladd... innn.. .ittt.... >.<
Rejoce in the Lordd alwaysss and Againn i say rej..o..ce.. >>.<<
Wahahahahahah! ALL THE BEZ PEEPS! I hope we will all be rejocing togethaa!! >.<
Altho thinking back at the JC and trying to mug but cant focus times really makes me wonder howww im ever gonna be rejocinggg.. >.<
Yes but I know that God loves his children... and He will take care of me... I dunno whether if it is His will for me to get good results... but I know that.. whatever the results.. He has made a way out for me..
But the initial shock of doing badly will definitely hit me of cos... thus... im trying to.. tune myself psychologically... so i wun be at an utter loss if the worst case scenario really happens(Oh man i can see it happening before my very eyes noww..>.<) Really.. i've been imagining the scene tml... looking at my script and its like... Ok i dun wanna say... *Shudders* ok.. its like.. smth like my "dream" results.. then what am i going to do??
I wish i cud silently slip away from the cheering crowd and just be alone.. but tt will be impossible of cos.. so.. if i'm really devastated beyong redemption.. I'll try to walk out of the hall and ignore everyone's "Eh how did u do?"s as best as i cud with a faint smile and a shake of the head, and walk out of the school and find some quiet spot to cry i guess >.< I guess i'd rather be alone.. dun wanna spoil ppl's mood ya noe.. wen they shud be rejocing over their results and stuff... n i wudnt want to know other's results too... it'd jus be more depressing i guess. Wow i think im realy escapist.. but i really dunno how im gonna face the world if tt happens. O.o Guess i'll need some time to cool b4 i finally sms someone n face the world again O.o
In case of disappointing but not totally hopeless results.. I'd probably jus cry in front of my frens.. n then i'd be fine.. i hope =X
I can so imagine.. like Conrad's face... tml.. wen he's about to pass my results.. oh man...its like.. the teacher will alr noe all ur results ma.. so u'll probably be able to guess ur results from the look of his face. i can jus imagine.. his face.. straight.. not commenting.. jus handing me my script..bcos inside he's thinking... Haiiiissss... >.<
Think i shud bring sunglasses and tissue tml in case i bawl my eyes out lk crazy.. i think i can start alr jus thinking about it >.<
Well but like my temp fren( temp staff fren) said.. Better to cry now than later... So.. at least have some mental preparation first... hoping for the best but expecting the worst.. is best... so maybe u'll be able to deal with it better if it does happen which i ... hope.. not =X
So.. we're all building a safety net for ourselves now. We all say we're scared.. and we all keep saying we will do so badly and flop like crazy... but at the back of our mind.. tell ourselves that we won't.. it won't be so bad..and we have this hope that cmon it wun be as bad as we think...
so if smth bad happens.. at least we have prepared ourselves for the worst alr.. so things wun seem tt bad.
I just hope my "safety net" doesnt break from the weight of reality tml =X
And to all of you other A lvler Peeps.. I hope u all wun have to use ur safety net at all!! GOOD LUCK! ALL THE BEST!! =))
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