sighhh. dun gettit. really dun gettit. hate the feeling of not knowing. hate wondering why things have to be the way it is. i hate not understanding why either.
dontlikethis feeling.
dont understand how ppl can make rational choices when they're in love. (although sometimes i oso cant stand ppl making horriblyyy irrational choices wen they're in love)
'It's impossible to love and be wise'- sir francis bacon.
isnt it??
I totally can identify with the quote. Lol~ i KNOW it's not good to follow ur feelings all the time and sometimes u have to make the RIGHT choices instead of what u FEEL like doing.. but i guess tts my weak point. (which also explains the lack of discipline hmmm..? :X ) hahahaha... well.. i do try... to make rational choices.. n then i always fail but no regrets hahah... my rational mind (usually) succumbs to my emotions >.<
SO.. being a very emotional person.. i dont understand how ppl can be rational!! sorrybut i dont.. just.. aRgHhhh~~ how can u repress ur feelings bcos of some rational choice???
How do u steel ur heart n let ur mind convince u that this is for the better when u're all torn up inside??
I know how it feels..*tried n tested*- didnt work out in e end!! I tried holding on until almost the end... n then i gave way. So stupiddd hahaha.. i start wondering why i inflicted pain n suffering on myself for 6 mts just to get back to square one. Altho i guess we both kind of realised alot of things after tt period which is good~ eheh no regrets.. i love u qi!!~ hahaha.. n i'm glad that i chose to get back with u even though technically..... God may not bless our r/s :X But i cant think so much as to how things are gonna work out in e end.. it hurts to rationalize -.- All i know now is that I'm so much happier with u in my life.. n I just wanna enjoy every happy moment of us tgt.. even tho i dunno wat may happen in e future!
Ok so maybe some ppl reallyyy know how to repress their feelings n manage to persevere for the 'long-term good'...
Just getting more n more disillusioned....... what is God's will? i dont know. I dont wanna bother to try finding out anymore.. seems lk whatever 'signs' were just coincidences.. ha..
i used to believe that nth happens coincidentally... bcos God is in control of everyth... so lk even wen a taxi comes just wen i need it i feel v thankful cos i feel as if God sent it there for me.
But.. if those 'signs' werent coincidences, then wat were they?? ends up they were just... mere coincidences.
I dont understand why event after event is taking place that is just making more n more disillusioned... setback after setback is just... too much disembedding of faith to take
by setback i dont just mean lk.. i blame God wen things dont go smoothly... i know tt being a christian doesnt mean we dont face setbacks so i dont mean that..
I have a philosophy in life- ' chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi'.
Why make urself suffer n bother to think so much.. go n fan so much.. when in e end nth goes as expected and and u never really noe what life is gonna throw at u?
Yea sorry i noe my mindset is very the simplistic one.. i tend to avoid cognitive thinking hence the lack of intelligence -.-
sighh..
what happened to 'FOLLOW UR HEART??'~ only appears in disney shows~ sighh so sad.. life is so sad... sometimes ppl have to make the rational choices instead of following their heart...
and all this for the better?? well i hope.
altho im sad cos i dont see how its gonna be... yet :(
(PS: IM OKAY n the basis of this post is not really abt me btw LOL.. sorry if this has been a confusing post..my thoughts arent very organized and im just ranting whatever that comes to mind so dont bother trying to comprehend..srsly.. hahah)
sighhh. dun gettit. really dun gettit. hate the feeling of not knowing. hate wondering why things have to be the way it is. i hate not understanding why either.
dontlikethis feeling.
dont understand how ppl can make rational choices when they're in love. (although sometimes i oso cant stand ppl making horriblyyy irrational choices wen they're in love)
'It's impossible to love and be wise'- sir francis bacon.
isnt it??
I totally can identify with the quote. Lol~ i KNOW it's not good to follow ur feelings all the time and sometimes u have to make the RIGHT choices instead of what u FEEL like doing.. but i guess tts my weak point. (which also explains the lack of discipline hmmm..? :X ) hahahaha... well.. i do try... to make rational choices.. n then i always fail but no regrets hahah... my rational mind (usually) succumbs to my emotions >.<
SO.. being a very emotional person.. i dont understand how ppl can be rational!! sorrybut i dont.. just.. aRgHhhh~~ how can u repress ur feelings bcos of some rational choice???
How do u steel ur heart n let ur mind convince u that this is for the better when u're all torn up inside??
I know how it feels..*tried n tested*- didnt work out in e end!! I tried holding on until almost the end... n then i gave way. So stupiddd hahaha.. i start wondering why i inflicted pain n suffering on myself for 6 mts just to get back to square one. Altho i guess we both kind of realised alot of things after tt period which is good~ eheh no regrets.. i love u qi!!~ hahaha.. n i'm glad that i chose to get back with u even though technically..... God may not bless our r/s :X But i cant think so much as to how things are gonna work out in e end.. it hurts to rationalize -.- All i know now is that I'm so much happier with u in my life.. n I just wanna enjoy every happy moment of us tgt.. even tho i dunno wat may happen in e future!
Ok so maybe some ppl reallyyy know how to repress their feelings n manage to persevere for the 'long-term good'...
Just getting more n more disillusioned....... what is God's will? i dont know. I dont wanna bother to try finding out anymore.. seems lk whatever 'signs' were just coincidences.. ha..
i used to believe that nth happens coincidentally... bcos God is in control of everyth... so lk even wen a taxi comes just wen i need it i feel v thankful cos i feel as if God sent it there for me.
But.. if those 'signs' werent coincidences, then wat were they?? ends up they were just... mere coincidences.
I dont understand why event after event is taking place that is just making more n more disillusioned... setback after setback is just... too much disembedding of faith to take
by setback i dont just mean lk.. i blame God wen things dont go smoothly... i know tt being a christian doesnt mean we dont face setbacks so i dont mean that..
I have a philosophy in life- ' chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi'.
Why make urself suffer n bother to think so much.. go n fan so much.. when in e end nth goes as expected and and u never really noe what life is gonna throw at u?
Yea sorry i noe my mindset is very the simplistic one.. i tend to avoid cognitive thinking hence the lack of intelligence -.-
sighh..
what happened to 'FOLLOW UR HEART??'~ only appears in disney shows~ sighh so sad.. life is so sad... sometimes ppl have to make the rational choices instead of following their heart...
and all this for the better?? well i hope.
altho im sad cos i dont see how its gonna be... yet :(
(PS: IM OKAY n the basis of this post is not really abt me btw LOL.. sorry if this has been a confusing post..my thoughts arent very organized and im just ranting whatever that comes to mind so dont bother trying to comprehend..srsly.. hahah)
