I've been sooo neurotic & terribly obssessed with getting business & publicity for the blogshop >.<
Really lei im jus sooo anxious and yeaa i guess i was too overly optimistic to begin with :(
And it's jus been a baddd period... everyth i planned is jus not gg well... :(
Internships for one...
The interviewer for sph jus made me feel damn stressed n lk she condemned me for not having a portfolio n dont even plan to hire me cos of tt in e first place.
I think i jus suck at interviews luh... im super.. not eloquent! And i cant thick skin tok kok n bs my way thru :((
I guess cos Sph v big n 'prestigious' so alot of interns from everywhr applying oso.. den she even say what in the Media industry no portfolio cannot get u anywhere... even polytechnic students got good portfolio blabla.
Then say some show what food blogs... to show their passion for writing.. may not be good but at least shows their passion. *shrugs*
But ya lor.. i oso nv tot of becoming journalist.. jus see it as possibility onli ma.. but i guess internships are not for u to explore possibilities.. they kinda expect u to know what u wanna do alr.. got passion n experience in tt area alr.. So scary.
I turned Savant degrees down alr.. altho i lk the company.. but dont think i can survive in a environment filled with guysss.. n reading HTML CODE n CSS... n don think they'll hire me oso luh cos i zero knowledge!!
AISH!!~
Ya lor anw.. this whole internship thing.. altho i dint get it.. which may not be a bad thing... led me to start rethinking what I really wanna do.. and make me feel the need to explore more areas... gain more experience...
And also made me feel abit lost.. cos i feel lk univerisity so useless in the media industry :( We lose hands down to all the poly students out there.. with experience and portfolios.. hard skills... srsly..
Then what are uni students supposed to go into? Research?? Oh pls.. kill me...
>.<
I've really lost my direction now.. and I'm jus hoping and praying that God will lead me to it.. and that it was his will for me to not to do an internship.
Guess deb will be seeing me in sch next sem after all! *yippee for you*
In the meantime... I realised how impt it is to look for more opportunities to do stuff and gain experience... and upgrade skills too.. or at least i hope to do so.. haha.. yup. Saw this ivle email for 3 mts internship position.. with NO PAY.. but u do events/marketing.. sounds pretty cool n lk smth i'd do.. but im not free this hols! :(
Oh wells.. and Ya.. back to blogshop... was super hyped.. n excited abt it... super POSITIVE... and then...
NO BUSINESS!! Ok la.. abysmal... hahahah!
My friends say im too impatient... but.. but.. BUT... FEW DAYS IS A LONG TIME NO?? But ya laa i was too idealistic n naive man! Wat was i thinking *smash head into wall* But anw.. im not about to give up just yet!!! NO WAY.. BU FU SHU...
So guys.. help me out ya!! let me spam ur fb walls.. help me fwd emailers n stuff.. promote to frens :D
please. :(
I feel like a total failure this week. >.<
Anw.. this verse my dad preached on today.. which i feel is super encouraging
Corinthians 2:9
What no eye has seen, nor heard, not the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him
Often we think how unfortunate we are...why am i not blessed in this area.. that area... but we fail to realised how blessed we acty are in God's love.. n blessed with the gift of having Christ in our life.. and the promise of eternal life in heaven.
Hope u guys will feel encouraged from this verse too!
Got a few other verses which really spoke to me too
1 Corinthians 3:7-9
So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives it growth. He who plants and he who waters are one, and each will receive his wages according to his labor. For we are God's fellow workers. You are God's field, God's building.
Good reminder that God is in control. And that we reap what we sow too, but God in the end is in control. Really need to rely on him for strength.. I did what i could alr.. I tried out for internships... I did wat i cud for the blog... now must trust in him to guide me.. n trust that I reap the fruits of my efforts :X
Ok its wayyy past the time i intended to slp And its wayyyy hot. GRR.
I've been sooo neurotic & terribly obssessed with getting business & publicity for the blogshop >.<
Really lei im jus sooo anxious and yeaa i guess i was too overly optimistic to begin with :(
And it's jus been a baddd period... everyth i planned is jus not gg well... :(
Internships for one...
The interviewer for sph jus made me feel damn stressed n lk she condemned me for not having a portfolio n dont even plan to hire me cos of tt in e first place.
I think i jus suck at interviews luh... im super.. not eloquent! And i cant thick skin tok kok n bs my way thru :((
I guess cos Sph v big n 'prestigious' so alot of interns from everywhr applying oso.. den she even say what in the Media industry no portfolio cannot get u anywhere... even polytechnic students got good portfolio blabla.
Then say some show what food blogs... to show their passion for writing.. may not be good but at least shows their passion. *shrugs*
But ya lor.. i oso nv tot of becoming journalist.. jus see it as possibility onli ma.. but i guess internships are not for u to explore possibilities.. they kinda expect u to know what u wanna do alr.. got passion n experience in tt area alr.. So scary.
I turned Savant degrees down alr.. altho i lk the company.. but dont think i can survive in a environment filled with guysss.. n reading HTML CODE n CSS... n don think they'll hire me oso luh cos i zero knowledge!!
AISH!!~
Ya lor anw.. this whole internship thing.. altho i dint get it.. which may not be a bad thing... led me to start rethinking what I really wanna do.. and make me feel the need to explore more areas... gain more experience...
And also made me feel abit lost.. cos i feel lk univerisity so useless in the media industry :( We lose hands down to all the poly students out there.. with experience and portfolios.. hard skills... srsly..
Then what are uni students supposed to go into? Research?? Oh pls.. kill me...
>.<
I've really lost my direction now.. and I'm jus hoping and praying that God will lead me to it.. and that it was his will for me to not to do an internship.
Guess deb will be seeing me in sch next sem after all! *yippee for you*
In the meantime... I realised how impt it is to look for more opportunities to do stuff and gain experience... and upgrade skills too.. or at least i hope to do so.. haha.. yup. Saw this ivle email for 3 mts internship position.. with NO PAY.. but u do events/marketing.. sounds pretty cool n lk smth i'd do.. but im not free this hols! :(
Oh wells.. and Ya.. back to blogshop... was super hyped.. n excited abt it... super POSITIVE... and then...
NO BUSINESS!! Ok la.. abysmal... hahahah!
My friends say im too impatient... but.. but.. BUT... FEW DAYS IS A LONG TIME NO?? But ya laa i was too idealistic n naive man! Wat was i thinking *smash head into wall* But anw.. im not about to give up just yet!!! NO WAY.. BU FU SHU...
So guys.. help me out ya!! let me spam ur fb walls.. help me fwd emailers n stuff.. promote to frens :D
please. :(
I feel like a total failure this week. >.<
Anw.. this verse my dad preached on today.. which i feel is super encouraging
Corinthians 2:9
What no eye has seen, nor heard, not the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him
Often we think how unfortunate we are...why am i not blessed in this area.. that area... but we fail to realised how blessed we acty are in God's love.. n blessed with the gift of having Christ in our life.. and the promise of eternal life in heaven.
Hope u guys will feel encouraged from this verse too!
Got a few other verses which really spoke to me too
1 Corinthians 3:7-9
So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives it growth. He who plants and he who waters are one, and each will receive his wages according to his labor. For we are God's fellow workers. You are God's field, God's building.
Good reminder that God is in control. And that we reap what we sow too, but God in the end is in control. Really need to rely on him for strength.. I did what i could alr.. I tried out for internships... I did wat i cud for the blog... now must trust in him to guide me.. n trust that I reap the fruits of my efforts :X
Ok its wayyy past the time i intended to slp And its wayyyy hot. GRR.
EPIC FAIL
