Actually I don't really get what's the big deal about commencement. I mean it's fun to wear the grad gown and take pictures and all... but actually I don't really feel like it's a very happy occassion, because it signifies the end of my carefree days, where I didn't have to worry about where to go next, what's my goal, and what about the money?
I've been studying my entire life and commencement marks the end of this very safe and all too familiar phase of my life. Now I have to put myself into the real world, and having to take on adult responsibilities.
It's kind of scary honestly. And worst of all, I've no idea where I'm going. Or if any doors are going to open for me.
That's why I've no idea why people celebrate their commencement. Welcome to the REAL WORLD. this is where life only GETS HARDER. sigh.. what's there to celebrate!
Or maybe i'm being too pessimistic. Lol.
I guess with greater responsibilities also comes greater power (spending power included heheh) and greater freedom... so there's the good and bad side.
It's not that I don't want to take on the responsibilities, I think I'm lucky to not be burdened about having to support my parents or be desperate to start making money, but I am... very pressured in my own way to start making a living and not depend on my parents anymore. Of course I want to be a responsible adult and start contributing to the family and supporting myself even though they don't really need the money urgently!
I guess what I really want is to settle down somewhere and not worry about where I'm headed to next... cos I hate uncertainty!! And I really... hate this whacking everywhere process and not knowing where I'm going....
gahhh...
Like really I just want to settle down somewhere already. Somewhere. Anywhere. As long as it's like a normal job..... and I can see myself staying there for 1-2 yrs at least....
Sigh....
God please open a door for me soon and end my misery :(
I hate dangling in the middle of nowhere... not knowing where to go...
Actually I don't really get what's the big deal about commencement. I mean it's fun to wear the grad gown and take pictures and all... but actually I don't really feel like it's a very happy occassion, because it signifies the end of my carefree days, where I didn't have to worry about where to go next, what's my goal, and what about the money?
I've been studying my entire life and commencement marks the end of this very safe and all too familiar phase of my life. Now I have to put myself into the real world, and having to take on adult responsibilities.
It's kind of scary honestly. And worst of all, I've no idea where I'm going. Or if any doors are going to open for me.
That's why I've no idea why people celebrate their commencement. Welcome to the REAL WORLD. this is where life only GETS HARDER. sigh.. what's there to celebrate!
Or maybe i'm being too pessimistic. Lol.
I guess with greater responsibilities also comes greater power (spending power included heheh) and greater freedom... so there's the good and bad side.
It's not that I don't want to take on the responsibilities, I think I'm lucky to not be burdened about having to support my parents or be desperate to start making money, but I am... very pressured in my own way to start making a living and not depend on my parents anymore. Of course I want to be a responsible adult and start contributing to the family and supporting myself even though they don't really need the money urgently!
I guess what I really want is to settle down somewhere and not worry about where I'm headed to next... cos I hate uncertainty!! And I really... hate this whacking everywhere process and not knowing where I'm going....
gahhh...
Like really I just want to settle down somewhere already. Somewhere. Anywhere. As long as it's like a normal job..... and I can see myself staying there for 1-2 yrs at least....
Sigh....
God please open a door for me soon and end my misery :(
I hate dangling in the middle of nowhere... not knowing where to go...
commencement
